i am so fucking sick of my roommate. like so much so that i could totally cuss her out. ack. last night i was joking around (even though i was serious) by saying "oh you're such a granny" when she was sighing and saying "i wish i could do something fun tonihgt.... but i really shouldn't.... i mean... i have to study.... i just want to eat at saga tonight..." fuck she didn't even fucking want to falskzd;lmzdf;lkn sorry i am so wound up. not in the nasty way. the irritated angry way. but she doesn't want to do anything- extra emphasis: ANYDAMNTHING. she's a granny. a prude. not any fun at all. i mean she can't even TALK about *gasp* sex or couples madly fucking the night away (not that we talk about that all the time, but the subject has come up and she gets..... prude like) ack. i am just so different than her. i can actually talk about stuff like that, but i can also stay true to my morals. she thinks that by staying true to herself, her morals, her beliefs, she has to sit holed up in our damned dorm room or the stupid music building and sing a damned jesus song off key. BLOODY HELL!!!!! arg. and i also didn't make it into this britain/ ireland study abroad program i wanted to go on. :( oh and so stephanie talked to our wannabe shrink friend from across the hall, who i happen to like best in ouor hall basically.... and now haley, the girl.... looks at me differently. she thinks i am some stupid girl who throws hissy fits (partially true on some occasions) and can't solv problems. that's not how i operate. i let a problem sit and simmer and boil until oi feel my head will burst and i flail out at the person like a madwoman and spill the whole thing out, cursing, screaming, but solving. crying also may be included. but generally let's just say burst with all the emotions going on. ACK. i am sooo ound up right now and tired tired TIRED of listening to her voice, watching her mannerisms, seeing her stupids granny decorations in our stupipd room. whew.