sunny outside but cloudy in my head

i feel so disgusting today! i am out of it, and have been all day. i slept pretty awful last night, having a nightmare about these disgusting little spiders infesting my house, so then i woke up at 3am and was awak for quite a while, woke again at 6am then finally at like 10:30am when nicole called me. but gracious. last night i remember at some point (maybe i was asleep for this) having a brilliant thought, and thinking, "oh that would be fun to blog about" and also (i know this part was a dream) david texted me and said he had made plans for tonight, but that we should arrive at 2pm in the afternoon and i said i could not make it because i was still going to be at orientation for my job. gracious. i do feel like shit. headache.... i really feel fuzzy and stupid, i am forgetting things.... it's not good. my brain is so... slow. gracious. anyways. i am going to watch hosue now/ help my mom make dinner (it's just the 2 of us this weekend, starting tonight, which could be fun and it could be super bad. oh well) oh. so at my new job... there is quite an eclectic group of us. think last ditch attempt to get a job..... yeah. funny group. and this kid who drove me nuts in high school because he openly hit on my best friend who had a boyfriend. well this guy, bobby, has the same job as me. gracious. AND he signed up to do full time as well. gracious. fortunately i am not in the same work crew as him now... or ever, so that's nice. ha. but anyways. i am going to go now. one last thought: "everything'll be allright (will's lullaby)" by joshua radin is amazing. so.... pretty. nice.