no invite.

so today i got on facebook for my daily hating of facebook, and i saw that my friends from whitworth were having a reunion when my ra from last year gets back into the states. it's a hall reunion, so all of the girls who lived on my hall last year. i was not invited. and that makes me sad. also none have said hi to me or anything all year so far. that also hurts. so i suppose i should just hang onto the 2 people at whitworth i talk to still, and only go up to visit them. you know, i would visit my other friends, like kendall or eric or kyle or sam or emily or elizabeth or stephanie... but it would be awkward. obviously they really didn't have that memorable a time with me last year to want to see me again. and yet another part of me thinks they would be happy to see me. but then again they would not know what to do with me. so disappointing. and it fuels my whitworth bitterness. (i always become very bitter towards the things i fail at). so... poop. so much for them all exuberantly stating that i just HAD to visit them "next (this) year!" poop poop poop. disappointing. i suppose i could initiate contact by sending them a wall post or something.... we'll see.

also some fun trivia- i am now on anti- depressants and still on a quest to find a "counselor" (shrink) to talk to. how fun. the drug- rep lady had tons of kid's toys and a teepee in her office. needless to say i felt out of place. and she lectured me with things i SHOULD do. which automatically triggers my REBEL response. and she was just looking for the main symptoms of depression and didn't really care about the details, so meeting with her felt like a spastic interview. but horray she wrote a prescription. and now we'll see if things work out. also she told me "yeah you are pretty depressed" like i should be happy to hear a diagnosis. hmmm. odd woman. thank goodness i'll only have to see her twice a year. also apparently i will pretty much be on these drugs until the end of enternity. wow. great news. NOT.