DTR

this is pretty self- explanatory. after a week of turmoil inside my head, i finally hinted to matt, and then scheduled a talk with him. i needed to explain my thoughts about everything between the two of us that was happening. basically i don't understand my reactions to everything that is going on. I told him I didn't feel I could handle any "relationship" in that sense whilst having trouble with my realtionship with my brain- which is a real tough cookie to befriend. That's basically all I feel like sharing here..... but things are cleared up. We clarified with each other about the conditions of our date. it was a get- to- know-you date, no strings attached. two friends, going out to dinner. now i kind of think he was playing it cool/ down a little bit... but i didn't tell him that. we are definately still friends, we hugged, things are not awkward. whew! so anyways.... thought i'd update ya'll on the good that's about again. last night matt and i texted until late.... and then at about 1:30am I texted him because i figured he'd be up.... and yeah after inviting me over to the off- campus guys' house he was chilling at... he actually decided to come back and he said he'd come watch ferris bueller's day off with me. :-) it was really fun. he smelled a bit like smoke, so he decided to go shower off.... and he came back smelling like a spicy god. mmmmm! i wondered if he'd shaved or something. teehee. but anyways. we watch ferris until late into the night/ morning.... and at about 4:30am we went to bed. a nice night. also on friday after our talk he, my ra/ friend devin and i went out to dinner at Qdoba for a change, went to the pet store to pet puppies, and we ended up petting rabbits, making fun or lurking rats and fat gerbils, scratching pigs on their backs (they had pigs out to pet... i liked them, the pigs liked me, except they pigged me with their noses.... a little slimy but still cute. they were snorting a lot too. very funny. ) haha... so anyways. also there were these 2 cute huskie puppies that devin watched poo for an unnaturally long time... haha.... yeha but anyways. fun times. but horray fpr communication! it's a relief to have thigns cleared up with matt. :-)