out of sight, out of mind. and body.

Well.... i just thought i'd reflect on the m&m's i'm eating now... or actually the m&m's i WAS eating, because i have now put them out of sight. because when they are right there in front of me i just keep eating them, and eating them, and eating them.... and you get the picture.

right now i am listening to my "encore" cd... i just LOVE movie soundtracks.... i listen to my "beautiful hollywood" cd every day. the music is sooooooo GOOD! it's music where you can just see the tears in his eyes, hear the emotion in her voice (or is it the other way around?) oh man. i love it. so much passion and emotion in the music. beautiful. also it's amazing to hum along to. more fun than singing actual words sometimes you know? probably not, but i love to do it.

i also just got off the phone with.... well a couple phone calls ago, with my dad. it's fun. more recently i have called him and we'll talk pleasantly for like a half hour! it's sucha nice change from the turmoil of times past. i'm sure there will still be some fights and such in the summer, but man, this peace business is sweet. i haven't talked ot my mom in a while though, which i actually miss. but i shall soon. i promise. it's just that whenever i think of calling.... she's at school (teaching) or else she'd already be in bed. hmmm. but we talked on sunday so that was nice.

another nice thing is.... i'm going to seattle this weekend!!!! at the people coming are.... elizabeth, devin, calli, matt, eric, emily, jill, and maybe sam. woot! i'm excited. we're leaving today at about 5ish... nad heading over to tacoma, where we'll disperse between matt and emily's houses (they are basically neighbors i hear) so anyways. then we'll chill in seattle doing the normal touristy things... devin hasn't gone before. so pike place and the space needle (looking up at it) are a must. yay!!!! i love seattle!!!!! woohooooo!!!!

so other than that... not too much is happening. though last night i was lying in bed pondering the fact that i am kind of usually/ always the scape goat. and then there's the whole routine where people laugh at me and make fun of me-- but that's cool, because i laugh too. but you know someitmes..... it's just too much. last night i got a bit frustrated with that fact, the one where i am the source of all the problems. gracious. but... i have since calmed down and am now open to any fun someonen would like to poke at me...

i think i'm going to go visit my friend eric in his room... yeah. fun stuff. also i a writing a paper in french... and it's going pretty well! i feel so smart. i spent the morning doing my french homework, since we have a butt load to do this weekend. so basically now all i'll have to do is finish this french paper and study study study for my corer test. all right! i am so driven now it's amazing!!!! except i don't work out. that's a bummer. oh fat is me.... i mean woe is me. ha. just kidding. well. tootles for now! horray for the sun!!! :-D